Writings on the Wall

2011-07-08T05:18:00.003+02:00

today i see
a door in front of me
the path is clear
i just need to enter
funny i cease to hear
the footsteps that followed me here
funny i cease to see
the distance diminishing be

there were doors before
thousands that i've entered
none that i've wanted
as much as i wanted this
but against all other doors before
none that that me feel
as alone and as weak
as i am standing in front of this..

Copyright ©2011 Dila Mohd

2009-08-14T19:22:00.002+02:00

i remembered when my hair was dark
as dark as the blackest of midnight tar
funny, i dont remember how i felt
funny that nothing rings a bell

i remembered when i colored it brown
as brown as the autumn leaves on the ground
funny how it changes with the season
funny how i remained the same person

yesterday my hair was colored blue
as blue as i held my feelings true
tomorrow i hope it will change
and take away all this pain

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2009-06-04T18:52:00.003+02:00

he said
laughter is the best medicine
she said
nothing can take away this pain
he soothed he murmured
he's filled with patience
she screamed she shouted
she felt so drained

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2009-06-04T18:43:00.004+02:00

silently she's here
driven by the screams she hears
strong, persuasive she bears it all
a smile, a swipe she lay to fall

the face remains eerily the same
the mind smiles its a dangerous game
the lips are hers, the voice remains
soft, unyielding not a trace of pain

similar but yet still not the same
long ago when she once came..

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2009-05-31T14:54:00.002+02:00

sometimes it felt like hot chocolate
sipped in the coldest of madison winter
sometimes it felt like the silkiest of cotton
known, warm, safe from harm

often times it felt like control
its yours, so real that you can almost hold
but most often than mostly not
it felt cruel, sharp and scalding hot

there are no sides that it will choose
no good no bad no matter who
it can come to you in a beat of the heart
it can make you whole or tear you apart..

love, it's not a song you can sing
it's not a pair of delicate white wings
love, it's that strange little feeling
soft as a caress, hard as steel
deep as the ocean, uncertain sometimes unreal..

Copyright ©2009 Dila Mohd

2009-05-31T14:46:00.001+02:00

trust is such a fragile little thing
fidelity has many different meanings
love oh love, if only it's a song we can sing..

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2009-05-31T14:37:00.002+02:00

its hard to say what i'm feeling right now
nothing seems to be as they should be
nothing seems as clear as they were
and i am afraid to close my eyes

its hard to say what i meant to say
words sometime seem too cruel to let out
feelings often times get in the way
and still, i am afraid to close my eyes..

what if i see what i dont want to see?
what if i cant deny this familiar in me?
and so i will never close my eyes..

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2009-05-26T20:02:00.003+02:00

and suddenly it stopped
it came for minutes, hours
and by seconds it stopped

that minute second i missed it
that part of me that came and passed
that part of me that i'd learned to suppress

the precious moments i've learned to cherished
through colors of emotions feelings and sights
the short bursts of momentous flights

till the next hour my precious child
sleep, now, it will be a while..

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2009-05-26T19:38:00.002+02:00

come, it said
away from the dark
come..

why are you here?
standing still, immovable

why do you care?
you, you who were silent all these years
you, who left me broken

i stood on my own
i fixed the broken pieces on my own
i dont need you
you, who left me alone

come, it still said
come, away from the dark..
you need me now
more than the past, you need me now

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2009-05-26T19:23:00.002+02:00

the night is dark
and yet i see
the person who stood
waiting for me

the wind blew north
pushing me forth
come, it said
but yet i wait

what do you have for me, i asked
love for all eternity?
life worth a crowned queen?

and what do you want in return, i screamed
my soul?
my life?
my very being?

let me be
please, let me be
let me learn
who this is inside of me
let me choose
what i want to be

if you love me,
wait..
please, wait..

Copyright ©2009 Dila Mohd

2009-05-26T19:18:00.002+02:00

which one, she asked
which way, she nudged me hard..

i dont know, i said
i honestly dont know..

winded road forked in two
both have such frightening hues

choose one, she said
which one, i asked..

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2009-05-26T19:08:00.002+02:00

someone said "stop"
i didnt listen

something said "hold"
i pushed on through

bit by bit i felt something slipped
slow, oh achingly slow, my mind ceased to know
the reason why
the being who

stop, and finally i listened
hold, and finally i did
know me, she said
know me, she screamed

i traced the figures in my mind
with delicate fingers seeking a sign
of recognition
of something to remind
that we are one..

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2009-05-26T19:02:00.004+02:00

i cry
inside my heart, though i dont know why

i scream
something need to be released but cant be seen

i sigh
at long last i do sigh

no tears
no sound
no reason why

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2005-08-29T05:12:00.000+02:00

they are here..

as clear and real as i closed my eyes
a world above the reaching skies
sentences formed in a blur of motion
paragraphs and chapters and closed captions

a word, no, two, a jot here and there
days or nights, i no longer care
wings i borrow, my soul i bare
but my tears, my love is always there...

Copyright ©2005 Dila Mohd

the need to create

2005-05-26T10:31:00.000+02:00

they come in flashes of color
the wildest imagination ever
fantasies never known boundaries
reality stretched to a point of envy

leave me alone, i ask of you
i love my world with boundaries
limits that i see to a tee
and a love that is so much a reality..

i'll lose myself if i indulge
ur world is a dream at large
spans of wings to see me fly
but none to wipe the tears i cry

leave me alone, for now, at least..
i'll never forsake u or deny u ur peace..
the time will come, i beg u please
when all the pages will finally be finished..

Copyright ©2005 Dila Mohd

festivities

2005-02-09T15:41:00.000+01:00

peace,
that's all i asked
from the blood of my own
to the faces masked

silence,
is it too much to ask
u've had ur fun
from dawn til dusk

oh festive seasons
if only u r the only reason..

Copyright ©2005 Dila Mohd

Valentine's

2005-02-04T09:21:00.000+01:00

a smiling face on the stand
the sweetest voice on the line
the thousands of miles across
this sweet love of mine..

the month of love is here..
alone but nothing to fear..

Copyright ©2005 Dila Mohd

A Gleam of Light

2004-05-29T10:58:00.000+02:00

i want to believe
i want to believe it so much that my heart tore
over the love he showered me
over the kindness he presented with gilds of gold

i want to bury the doubts
the tiny teeth of suspicions that are too much to bear
i want to silence the anger
the hurt that was inflicted far before his time

why am i doing this..
its like the sun being shadowed with dark clouds
the largest diamond with a scratch barely seen
why am i denying myself of rapture..

he is there..
a gleam of light in winded tunnel

Copyright ©2004 Dila Mohd

Another day, missing you...

2004-05-23T15:24:00.000+02:00

Another day is dawning...
Another morning,
where i wake up and not be able to be there
to confess my love to you,
and let it be the first thing you hear to start your new day...

Another day of madness at work awaits...
with it being only a distraction, knowing that...
Another night is coming...
where I crawl into my cold, lonely bed...
and not be able to be there to whisper 'I love you'...
and let it be the last thing you hear to end your day...
Another day has passed,
and another will come...
and everyday is another day...
that brings me closer to be with you again... I miss you

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Love Lost

2004-04-30T15:20:00.000+02:00

I see you standing in the rain
With thunder and lightening in the skies
I see your face crumpled with pain
And the light that I love lost in your eyes

I see you held your head so low
As if the raindrops are hurting you so
With the pain, the anger and the sorrow
It was as if there's no tomorrow

Come here my love, take my hand
I promise you this where you stand
Throughout the storm, the thunder & the rain
I will be beside you to share your pain
Just a little stronger through this bout
The sun will appear after the dark clouds
The colors of rainbow will paint the skies
And my love, the light will return to your eyes...

Copyright ©2004 Dila Mohd

110304

2004-03-11T15:06:00.000+01:00

Dabbled and dabbled, and dabbled again
never getting to matters on land
lines and lines and lines amend
trying to chase the ticking hand

Light and dark, sun and moon
seconds are felt, flying too soon
hot and frigid, warm and cool,
land now, its dangerous fool...

Reds were blinking now ignored
rush of feelings has come forth
oh mighty being see her through
as she wobbles in her shoes
Into the night hoping for dawn
wishing for light and courage born
but step, and step, here hold my hand
there, you see, the sun rises again...

Copyright ©2004 Dila Mohd

Untouchable

2004-02-14T15:23:00.000+01:00

She looked in the mirror
In the gleam of the glass
In the faces of her terror
Of the darkness of her past
And she closed her eyes
Where she dreamt of paradise
Of a thousand stars shining so high
Of raindrops falling where she lie
She searched the sky for peacefulness
And the clouds offer her tenderness
In her mind the mountain looms protectiveness
In her mind the wind blows like a caress
A place where no one can touch her now
A place where no one can make her bow

Copyright ©2004 Dila Mohd

Taking its Toll

2004-01-24T15:22:00.000+01:00

There're such memories that are forever etched,
Such memories that time just not forget,
His smiles his laughter and his loving caress,
His cologne his presence and even his blush when he's embarrassed. . .

There's such pain that cuts into your heart,
Such pain that tears your life apart,
A lingering emptiness throughout your soul,
Like a resonating echo taking its toll. . .

Copyright ©2004 Dila Mohd

Fade

2004-01-02T15:21:00.000+01:00

There was once a love like no other,
A love that changed a person for the better,
The strides were bouncier the smiles wider,
The laughter was merrier the eyes shinier..

She thought she had the world at her feet,
Oh happiness and joy that came in leaps,
She thought that love was all it takes,
Guess she never thought that love could fade...

Copyright ©2004 Dila Mohd

I Wonder

2004-01-01T15:18:00.000+01:00

I wonder where you are today,
Or what you did for dinner yesterday,
I wonder if you gonna be busy all day,
Whether you have time to be away;

I wonder why I am still wondering,
When you made it clear that there's no more feelings,
I wonder what is it that I am missing,
When the things between us used to be so heartbreaking;

I wonder when did love become a task,
When did we start drifting apart?
Was it when we never bother to ask,
Why were we always hurting each other's heart;

I wonder if I'd been better had I never met you,
If the clouds would be whiter the skies blue,
I wonder if I'd be happier years later,
If time will really heal or it's just another rumour,
I wonder if I'd be with someone new,
Or would I still be wondering about you...

Copyright ©2004 Dila Mohd