the night is dark
and yet i see
the person who stood
waiting for me

the wind blew north
pushing me forth
come, it said
but yet i wait

what do you have for me, i asked
love for all eternity?
life worth a crowned queen?

and what do you want in return, i screamed
my soul?
my life?
my very being?

let me be
please, let me be
let me learn
who this is inside of me
let me choose
what i want to be

if you love me,
wait..
please, wait..

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which one, she asked
which way, she nudged me hard..

i dont know, i said
i honestly dont know..

winded road forked in two
both have such frightening hues

choose one, she said
which one, i asked..

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someone said "stop"
i didnt listen

something said "hold"
i pushed on through

bit by bit i felt something slipped
slow, oh achingly slow, my mind ceased to know
the reason why
the being who

stop, and finally i listened
hold, and finally i did
know me, she said
know me, she screamed

i traced the figures in my mind
with delicate fingers seeking a sign
of recognition
of something to remind
that we are one..

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i cry
inside my heart, though i dont know why

i scream
something need to be released but cant be seen

i sigh
at long last i do sigh

no tears
no sound
no reason why

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they are here..

as clear and real as i closed my eyes
a world above the reaching skies
sentences formed in a blur of motion
paragraphs and chapters and closed captions

a word, no, two, a jot here and there
days or nights, i no longer care
wings i borrow, my soul i bare
but my tears, my love is always there...

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the need to create

they come in flashes of color
the wildest imagination ever
fantasies never known boundaries
reality stretched to a point of envy

leave me alone, i ask of you
i love my world with boundaries
limits that i see to a tee
and a love that is so much a reality..

i'll lose myself if i indulge
ur world is a dream at large
spans of wings to see me fly
but none to wipe the tears i cry

leave me alone, for now, at least..
i'll never forsake u or deny u ur peace..
the time will come, i beg u please
when all the pages will finally be finished..

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festivities

peace,
that's all i asked
from the blood of my own
to the faces masked

silence,
is it too much to ask
u've had ur fun
from dawn til dusk

oh festive seasons
if only u r the only reason..

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Valentine's

a smiling face on the stand
the sweetest voice on the line
the thousands of miles across
this sweet love of mine..

the month of love is here..
alone but nothing to fear..

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A Gleam of Light

i want to believe
i want to believe it so much that my heart tore
over the love he showered me
over the kindness he presented with gilds of gold

i want to bury the doubts
the tiny teeth of suspicions that are too much to bear
i want to silence the anger
the hurt that was inflicted far before his time

why am i doing this..
its like the sun being shadowed with dark clouds
the largest diamond with a scratch barely seen
why am i denying myself of rapture..

he is there..
a gleam of light in winded tunnel

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Another day, missing you...

Another day is dawning...
Another morning,
where i wake up and not be able to be there
to confess my love to you,
and let it be the first thing you hear to start your new day...

Another day of madness at work awaits...
with it being only a distraction, knowing that...
Another night is coming...
where I crawl into my cold, lonely bed...
and not be able to be there to whisper 'I love you'...
and let it be the last thing you hear to end your day...
Another day has passed,
and another will come...
and everyday is another day...
that brings me closer to be with you again... I miss you

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